I 've lost a friend once because of my insensitivity. It happened when you are tree somes. One might have felt left away. Maybe I was paying too much attention to one until the other one kecik hati. When I realized it, It was too damn late, the hurt she felt was unbearable, even thousands of apology I have offered could not undo her pain...It was such a regret, one of the biggest mistake I have ever made in my entire life, loosing a dear friend like that. I tried to rekindle, catching up with her, but I guess we both have changed. But deep inside I know she still cares for me and so do I . I seldom regret, things happened the way it supposed to be. It is Him who has the final say. But as for this one, I understand the truest meaning of regret.
And there are times when I am happy to loose a friend, although it might have sounded pretty mean. I lost this super duper bitch friend whom I once regarded as 'best friend'. Sadly, she failed or too dumb to understand what best friend suppose to be like. Of course there are no best friends rituals or rulings to be followed but obvioulsly it is not shooting your best friend on the back. I was naive to have the thoughts that my best pal would share my sorrow during my gloomy days or at least be a shoulder for me to cry on ( like I did for her, offering my shoulder, my money, my home to her comfort, sialan). Every sad story, every secret I confided to her had been told and retold to hundreds of others but of course to my dismay, cerita2 itu telah digubah dan ditokok tambah dengan sesedap rasa tak hengat. Sehingga aku terasa seperti Fasha Sandha yang penuh kontroversi itu. Until me myself was so amazed with the 'story' of me, sampaikan ku terlupa cerita akukah itu, fuyoooh. Sungguhlah perempuan itu berbakat menjadi penulis skrip.I would have suggested that she go and mintak kerja with Apek David Teoh tu, but I am soooooo not talking to her ever again. Eventhough di dalam dunia ini hanya tinggal aku,. dia dan Tenuk, haruslah aku hanya akan bercakap dengan tenuk itu adanya. Mynn, over to you.
That is what I call a total betrayal (although aku telah merasakan total betrayal part 2, well that is a different story, different entry, well not until I am strong enough to blog about it anyway). This time aku regret gak, but not regret of losing her but regret ever knowing her. Doesnt old friendship means anything to her? What is she anyway, manusiakah atau mangkuk hayunkah atau beruk?????
I 've known her since kindy days. I always thoght she was shallow but its ok rather than BANGANG.She kills I tell U. To sum up, I think of her as cannibal, why? Habiss kan memfitnah tu kan dosanya sama macam membunuh and mengumpat tu macam memakan daging saudara sendiri. Harus banyak lah daging2 aku yang dia dah makan. Nahh meh sini aku makan daging ko plak.
And there are some langau and lalats yang tidak tahu species asal nya dari mana dan telah bermutasi menjadi manusia and tetiba je jadi bes fren. Tetiba as if she knows everything about me, memfitnah aku kat kat Prof feberet aku. Celaka punya mamak. (tidaklah aku have any grudges over mamak, aku pun suka makan nasi kandar apa). Sampai mati pun aku tidak akan mengampunkan dosa kau. Nak je aku sumpah muka anak dia (kalau boleh beranaklah kan) sok ada macam aku so dia akan ingat dosa dia kat aku selama dia idup, tapi itu bermakna aku turut berdoa agar anak dia lawa macam Jessica Alba, (ehem) , terpaksa la aku kensel.So kepada minah kengkang itu, just because aku ni over secretive to you, tak bermakna la aku ni jahat, that simply means I HATED U and we would never be friends, kat atas muka bumi ni or kat akhirat pun, never.
And recently I lost a friend due to her own foolishness. This case aku malas nak komen. A rather interesting case study for any calon doktor mental though. But I have no interest. Ini kes kaduk naik junjung yang lupa daratan. Masa susah, kau lah ratu, kaulah raja kaulah intan berlian segala, walaupun aku tolong tapau lunch aje. Bila dah kaya(p) kekwat tak hengat. In short I think it is a stage of mental illness.Boleh jalan. Kenapa lah aku banyak jumpa orang gila ????????